O.M.G. Where the heck to start?
I am such a horrible diary keeper I swear.
Life has been crazy for me and it seems to just end up worse than better.
Since I've moved back home I've had three job interviews and none of which have been willing to offer me a position even when it looked positive. I've been built up and let down numerous times. I don't know what it is that's keeping me from getting a job. It's wearing on all my relationships and quite frankly making me mentally go insane.
It's like being in a vessel you don't want to be in but can't seem to find a way out of it. You want to escape if you can but there's no way out. It's like you can't stand to be in your own skin anymore. I feel like an embarrassment to everyone around me. My significant other, my in-laws, my parents, my friends. I just want to crawl in a hole and basically die. Which sounds like a good idea right about now.
I'm at a loss for anything else. I've basically exhausted EVERY one of my options in this city and I have less than 100 dollars to my name. I've lost my home, my pets, my personal items, my dignity, my everything..It's all gone and I'm not sure where or how to go about rebuilding it.
I'm so stuck in a situation I can't control. You can't MAKE someone hire you.
But anyway in short that's my update for this quarter. I'll surely be back in time if things change or even if they remain the same.
I'm just highly frustrated with life and some days more than others I feel like giving that (life) up.
